Thursday, February 3, 2011

'I'm Still Here'


Upon watching the Joaquin Phoenix mockumentary, 'I'm Still Here' I found it imperative to write about what I thought about it.

Even though the whole thing was bullshit, it was still vividly entertaining. It had a little bit of every element that makes it a sensual experience; it was funny, misunderstood, awkward, exciting, and mostly sad. To think that this was an actor who had reached the apex of his career and decided to take a leap of faith and pursue a career as rapper. Like I said before, it was all bullshit, but, the idea behind it was genius and I think that there was something behind it all that we all can learn from and appreciate.

At this point you're probably thinking, what's your point? Well, I'm getting there...

Durkheim said that there was an almost inexplicable external force that controlled our demeanor and everyday lives..."Social Powers". It explained the way we acted and interacted in everyday life, socialization. With this process it's almost as if we're programmed to sit, eat, walk, talk, and everything else in between. In Phoenix's case, acting is the same way...you're told to show up at a certain time, read lines that someone else wrote, dress up in clothing somebody wants you to wear, etc. If acting and performance is considered an expressive art, doesn't the influence of the "Tinseltown" industry negate that ideology?  I think so. That's why it makes a lot of sense why someone would want to do something like this.

Karl Marx called it "Species Being", this is the fulfillment of 1) Choice 2) Control and 3) Ownership. If all of these sensual needs aren't fulfilled than we are in-fact exploited and alienated, according to Marx. I think the perception that Joaquin Phoenix portrayed in the film was that of this. His character wanted his own way of doing things. Deviating and expressing his views of how the world worked was all that mattered. It didn't matter that his raps & rhymes sucked, it's the fact that he had total control of his destiny.

You're probably thinking, "Wow Gabe, you're a such a nerd with all of this sociological theorist referencing". It's really the only way I can formally connect it to what or why it makes sense.

I think that the world needs more Joaquin Phoenix's (or real one's at least). I think that he's still an amazing actor, in everything that he's done. I don't necessarily know why he did what he did, but, if it was to relay a message I most certainly got and understood it. It's okay to go against the grain every once in a while, it's okay to put all of your cards on the table and see what life gives you, regardless of the persecutions or what lies ahead. It sounds terrible, but, there really was a life lesson behind it all. This blog probably belongs on Alan Geiss' page, hopefully, he'll have some insight.

That's all folks.

                                                         -g

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Sellout

So, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Mainly about things of the past and how times are much different now. A little over a year ago, I put a lot of things on hold (which was really only one thing) that was making music and doing what I do best. I got a lot of shit for packing everything up and "selling out", giving up on the "scene" that did so much for me. Bullshit.

In all honesty, the reason I "postponed" doing that I do is because...I grew up. I got my priorities in order, playing house parties, local shows, and trips to the valley to play for 10 people and still have to pay both ways to get back home wasn't for me anymore. I played music with the most self-destructive people I have ever known, and I wouldn't have had it any other way. A lot of things changed, maybe I lost that fire that fuels an individual to keep on keeping on. Maybe I exhausted all of my creativity and resources to give my all, or maybe I just made music with the same people for way too long. Could be a little bit of everything.

Bottom line, life happens. Things that were once important sometimes aren't anymore. I love music, ALL kinds of music. It's not about a "hardcore community" or this DIY lifestyle (which is all bullshit anyway) It's not about who has the craziest large font merch, or who has the most vinyl... it's about the moment, and once you have to fight with yourself and start using rationale to do something you love, then its all over. To all the "new kids" in the crew...this feeling that you're feeling is going to disappear one day, enjoy it while you can, because, there's not enough Minor Threat and Bad Brains references to help pay the bills.

To the few that will read this; I know it sounds rash, however, it's from the heart.

                                                                               -g

Monday, January 31, 2011

First Blog: Where I am Now...

So, this is my first blog in YEARS since using a livejournal account, yeah...it's been that long. Anyhow, a good friend, and brother, Evan Arciniega, inspired me to want to pick up blogging again. I don't know how often or how well I'm gonna keep with this, but...why not? It's 2011 right?

Having mentioned that I haven't done this in a while, it'd be safe to assume that LOTS of things have changed. I'm a different person than I was when I was living 2 1/2 hours south of SA. I think my mindset is different, I've grown in age and in intellect. This mediocre mentality I used to have is gone, I no longer settle for less, I strive for more. I try to be and do better than the day before. I appreciate things more. I love to live, and I live to love.

I've been to hell and back, lost friends, kept a few, made some new ones. I've been outcast, ridiculed, persecuted, and tried. However, I've opened up new doors and opened up my heart to more people. I take the curve balls...and pray I don't swing out.

Life is great, and I wouldn't change a thing.

                                                                                    -g